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clockworkpixel) wrote2003-09-29 06:20 pm
clockworkpixel) wrote2003-09-29 06:20 pm
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"Ok, today is definitely a low-emotional-energy day. Dispite getting at least 8-9hrs sleep last night it took me and hour and a half to drag my sad self out of bed this morning. The advantage of not working to a schedule is I can get away with this sort of BS, the problem is it lets me get away with this sort of BS.
Dragged myself around at work today (22 bikes built, 3 repaired, 6.5 hours on hte low end of average). I was yawning and my eyes felt tired all day. I wonder if this has to do with my stopping drinking Mt Dew Code Red constantly . It never really made me feel awake before, but prehaps the lack of the caffiene is exacerbating the tiredness.
In this low-energy state I started drifting down all sorts of dark & melencholy passages of my brain. Recalling various... not unpleaseant, just sad memories. The grey mood continued on the drive home. I pondered canceling my get-together this weekend, as it has had such a lack-luster response. And people I was hoping would come have not even acknowledged it's existance.
*sigh* I know my life is not all pain and misery. I know everything is not bad, and in fact lots of stuff is going pretty good right now. I think I'm just feeling isolated living far from everyone with no phone or email there. The dreary weather of the last three days hasn't helped. I feel very frustrated at not being able to accomplish the few minor repairs I need to do on The Cat
But I've emailed a friend about dinner tomorrow. And if that doesn't happen I'm going to work on the Cat, rain or not, I can always use mom's garage. And I think I will resolve to do another round of cleaning & arranging at the cottage. And I'll remember that I got to play shadowrun yesterday, and ponder plans for my character when the plot continues.
And I'll remember the damn coatrack this time."
Dragged myself around at work today (22 bikes built, 3 repaired, 6.5 hours on hte low end of average). I was yawning and my eyes felt tired all day. I wonder if this has to do with my stopping drinking Mt Dew Code Red constantly . It never really made me feel awake before, but prehaps the lack of the caffiene is exacerbating the tiredness.
In this low-energy state I started drifting down all sorts of dark & melencholy passages of my brain. Recalling various... not unpleaseant, just sad memories. The grey mood continued on the drive home. I pondered canceling my get-together this weekend, as it has had such a lack-luster response. And people I was hoping would come have not even acknowledged it's existance.
*sigh* I know my life is not all pain and misery. I know everything is not bad, and in fact lots of stuff is going pretty good right now. I think I'm just feeling isolated living far from everyone with no phone or email there. The dreary weather of the last three days hasn't helped. I feel very frustrated at not being able to accomplish the few minor repairs I need to do on The Cat
But I've emailed a friend about dinner tomorrow. And if that doesn't happen I'm going to work on the Cat, rain or not, I can always use mom's garage. And I think I will resolve to do another round of cleaning & arranging at the cottage. And I'll remember that I got to play shadowrun yesterday, and ponder plans for my character when the plot continues.
And I'll remember the damn coatrack this time."
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Hey! Come to supper on Thursday! 3-)