Don't know why I bother

"Well I figured today I'd polish out the hood, then get started in on masking in the cat face and transcribing quotes onto it. Well once I moved it from where I had painted it to where I was going to work on it I could clearly see in addition to the overspray marks I knew were there that there were places where I hadn't managed to cover the original silver paint!
So I stood it back up and started to spray yet another coat on it. Well in addition to the overspray problems I've been having all along with the hood this coat managed to also run, fisheye and get dust in it (dispite wipeing it down with a tack-cloth which should have prevented that). And there is no way I have time to wait for this to dry then sand it down and try a fourth coat of paint. So I'm stuck with the options of leaving the old crappy hood on her, or putting the new fucked-up hood on her. Great choice.

I don't know why I bother. No matter what I do it ends up looking like total shit. I should just not bother and save myself the time/effort/and frustration of trying and ending up with a fucked-up result."

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"Well, I can feel myself slipping into a major depressive episode, so I'm going to head out driving for a while.
I really shouldn't be wasting money on gas for stuff like this, but fuck it I need to get out."

A bit better

"Was driving until around 3:30pm, then I crawled into bed and slept through around 8:45pm. I feel a bit better now. Tomorrow I'm going to my mom's to help her plant some bushes, then off to see my friend [R] before she moves to SanFran. Don't know yet but I might be crashing at her place or I might end up at [J] or [K]'s place."