I officially give up.

"I have decided that I am fucking tired of sinking money into that piece of shit cadillac and that I am not going ot do it anymore. ( ranting cut for your protection )

I'm tired of this. I'm tired of all of it. I just want *something* to go well in my life for at least a little while. Right now I feel like I'm running at full tilt just to slow the rate at which I'm losing ground."