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not been a good couple of days.
Jul. 21st, 2005 10:06 pm "As you all sorta saw from my phone post on tuesday, I got kicked into a magor depressive mood that night. It was caused by multiple hits to my 'my friends/partners/etc. are only tolerating me until they find someone more interesting/better/cute/etc.' trigger by two sweeties. I was in *really* bad shape that night.
Wednesday saw a day with no work, which since it was unplanned and follows me taking Fri off sucks since it means two days lost pay out of five. Did some cleaning around the house, and some other things, but most of it was in a generaly mopey mood that had swung somewhat into 'annoyed at the world'. Had conversations with another sweetie, which didn't go particularly well due to my moods and hers crashing into each other. We sorta respolved things but I came off it back into full on depressed. Ended up not going to Voltaire show as was busy with a project til late enough that I wouldn't have gotten to the club until almost midnight, and the club closes at 1am.
Today work started out frustrating and I've found in this job if the work day starts badly it never gets better. Then on the way home I had to stop and get a tire fixed that I'd picked up a nail in. Stood around the tire place for a half hour waiting for my car to be ready, then peeked my head into the garage only to see the tire dude tightening the lug nuts on the wrong wheel. Turns out he had read the paperwork wrong and had removed, dismounted, checked, remounted & baalanced the *wrong* tire. So I got to wait around for another half hour for him to do the right tire. Thanks, not like I had any *plans* for my evening or anything.
Tomorrow is Diesel up in Boston, as well as the last night at Manray's current location. I'm planning on Diesel and pondering Manray. But I can't do Manray without crash space up there, and the two ppl I'd most like to ask I currently can't. Because they are sweeties and I'm still in the 'not actually wanted only being tolerated' mindset.
Yep, can't ask them directly, but can post this weirdly reverse passive-aggresive post publicly in my jounral. How pathetic is that?"
Wednesday saw a day with no work, which since it was unplanned and follows me taking Fri off sucks since it means two days lost pay out of five. Did some cleaning around the house, and some other things, but most of it was in a generaly mopey mood that had swung somewhat into 'annoyed at the world'. Had conversations with another sweetie, which didn't go particularly well due to my moods and hers crashing into each other. We sorta respolved things but I came off it back into full on depressed. Ended up not going to Voltaire show as was busy with a project til late enough that I wouldn't have gotten to the club until almost midnight, and the club closes at 1am.
Today work started out frustrating and I've found in this job if the work day starts badly it never gets better. Then on the way home I had to stop and get a tire fixed that I'd picked up a nail in. Stood around the tire place for a half hour waiting for my car to be ready, then peeked my head into the garage only to see the tire dude tightening the lug nuts on the wrong wheel. Turns out he had read the paperwork wrong and had removed, dismounted, checked, remounted & baalanced the *wrong* tire. So I got to wait around for another half hour for him to do the right tire. Thanks, not like I had any *plans* for my evening or anything.
Tomorrow is Diesel up in Boston, as well as the last night at Manray's current location. I'm planning on Diesel and pondering Manray. But I can't do Manray without crash space up there, and the two ppl I'd most like to ask I currently can't. Because they are sweeties and I'm still in the 'not actually wanted only being tolerated' mindset.
Yep, can't ask them directly, but can post this weirdly reverse passive-aggresive post publicly in my jounral. How pathetic is that?"
