Short circuits

"So all of Thursday morning my brain kept thinking in rhymes. Every time a thought popped into my head my brain would think up a second line that rhymed with the first. They were all rather silly and pointless rhymes too. The only one I can recall now was from when I decided to check out the snack bar at Vassar:

'I think I'll got the the Retreat and check out the fare.
If I don't find anything I like I'll go to my car and eat what's stashed there.'

It was really entertaining to sort of mentally sit back and watch my brain do this. I think it had to do with the utter lack of decent sleep that night. Fortunately once I actually found and started interacting with ppl it stopped, so I wasn't trying to talk in rhyme too."

Sceduling difficulties

"So I thought I was going apple picking with a friend and some of her friends tomorrow. Turns out that they are going Sunday not Saturday. Since I am working Sunday I can't join them now.
Feh.

Now I need new Fri-night/Sat plans. Can't go up to Vassar as TFHO's SO is visiting and I don't want to intrude on that (existance of SO and reasons for lack of intrusion to be explained at some point today). Can't think of any other ways to occupy my day offhand.
Feh."

Rule 1) Communicate. Rule 2) Communicate. Rule 3) Communicate.

"Well I got a surprising piece of information the other day. Turns out that TFHO has a boyfriend. What is even more interesting is that apparently she has told him of my existance, but not that she and I have slept together.
As those of you who read this should know by now, I'm polyamorous, so the fact of her having an SO doesn't bother me. However the fact that she did tell me of his existance until now, and hadn't told him of her and I's situation bugs the shit out of me.
I'm not angry with her, not even really mad. Somewhat frustrated and annoyed is prolly about where I'm at. He is going to be visiting her this weekend at Vassar (which is why I am giving the campus a wide berth, I don't want to make things more complicated than they already are), and she has said that she is going to tell him what's been going on.
Part of why I'm not angry at her is that it doesn't seem that she was intentionally hiding his existance from me. She never told me flat out that he existed, but also never told me that he didn't. It simply never came up either way. At most she might have been subconsciously deciding to not inform me because of issues in their relationship. However when she realized that she freaked out, which lends credence to it.
The other reason I'm not really angry at her is that she's only 18 and a freshman in college. I remember how stupid I could be and was about stuff when I was 18, and therefore am much more willing to cut her slack. I hadn't even gotten invovled with anyone by 18, that wouldn't happen until I was a year older.
*sigh*
It is bothersome though. I have sworn to myself that I won't do anything by cuddle and prehaps kiss with her until I know that anythign more is ok with everyone involved. ANd if the result of seh and his discussion is that she and I aren't together at all, I can live with that too.
One of my rules for relationshipsi sthat I won't do anything without the knowledge and consent of all relevant parties. I broke that one by not thinking to ask beforehand. Another rule is that I don't want to put myself in a postion where I cause the distruction of a relationship, or be 'the other man' in a breakup. I just hope that she and I's actions don't end up causing that rule to have been broken."